Never happier..

I couldnt be any happier... This is my day.. The happiest moment of my life. This whole facade was because of one man and one man only. My oxygen. I started the day with a good conversation with him. We talked a lot, but got cut off cause my father was calling me. We are going to market to stock the fridge. Then i went online..We talked again, flirted and before i knew it he was asking me out.. I was really excited and never been happier. You see, this was our first date since ages? I really can't remember the last time we were out. So I was never happier. I just hope nothing's gonna come our way and the date was going to pursue. I was so happy. I couldn't help but wonder, is this for real or am i dreaming, well  I was certainly awake.

The power of love..

It is indeed a very good day for me today. At first i thought i was about to lose a friend, not just a friend but one of my very good good friend that i consider at work. He was planning to resign. He told me first and I was so shocked at the same time so sad when the news broke to me. He told me the reason and to tell you honestly it was a good one. He was offered way better than he was receiving at our company right now. And who am I to hinder that one good opportunity? If it was before maybe i begged him to stay, but i have grown. I am not that type of person who will hold it against someone if ever they will leave. You know i have some parting issues. I couldn't accept the fact that someone close to me is gonna leave me. But that was before. I should not stop anyone from getting their dreams, from achieving their personal growth. So now i learned how to let go. Friendship, a true friendship is not gonna end that easily. So i handled that news very well. After my talk with that friend of mine, I had a long talk with my love. Sometimes i wander how that guy really made me feel elated. We had a good and long conversation. We tried to catch up. We talked a lot of things. And it made me feel good somehow as the sadness drifting to me like pouring rain. I had also a good conversation with our HR. I had a first impression to her as if she was a snob. Somehow it was dissipated, but not totally actually. I felt good. And then to my surprise my friend told me he really thought about it and realized he cant leave us. By us i mean one of our friend, cause you see he was in love with one of our good friend. He cant bear not to see her. Now i couldn't help but wonder,, how love can be that powerful, well i can understand. I was on the same feeling and sentiment months ago.. We really cant bear to leave our love behind. How powerful love really is. Even mountain can be moved...

Man.. Polygamous..

I was at work. Just another typical day for me. I thought i wouldnt be able to write here and that would be very sad. It was when one of my MTs who was my batchmate, we were one of the pioneers in RDSI. It was when I accompanied her downstairs and i had a chance and idea to put something here. We talked a lot of things. It amazes me how insightful our conversation can be. Mostly our talk circled on how man was polygamous. Why is it man cannot be contented in loving or being with only one? Am i talking generally here? Is really man really polygamous and cant control their emotions and urges? Why it can be very difficult for man to love one woman or should i say man? She has husband, and there has been a chance when her husband had cheated her with another woman. It was very saddening to know that man can be so dense and insensitive as to how this things happened. Is it just for the enjoyment? Is it just sexual urge? Or is man has no contentment at all? There is this guy in our work.. He is my friend actually, who had abondoned his original friend and took another to be his companion. So later on, his original or should i say his first friend fall for him, and just like that upon meeting a new girl leaves her hanging without any talk or words whatsoever. I actually felt her agony and pain. It can be very painful to feel that way. The feeling that you have given almost everything and in the end he will just leave you hanging. Some guys can go back to their wives, girlfriends, or friends, but others just cant. When the time come that they will come back are we ready to accept and forget? Are we ready to forgive and make up? Most of us will say yes, and some of us will dont. I salute those who wont. But sometimes the one who was left behind can be very blind, deaf, and numb. They will accept the one they love with open arms. Now I couldnt help but wonder; will man be like this until the end or are we ready to move on, do something and stand up about this?..

Back to work..

I was back to work from almost 2 days of off. And again I was late as usual, to my surprise i saw the love of my life in his most formal wear ever. He looked so yummy in his green polo and dark green slacks. That really makes my day. Then i did my usual routine, edit, watch movies at flickpeek.com, eat, and make landi to him. And I couldnt help but wonder; Are there gonna be future with us? He really keeps me out of breath..

What a tiring day..

It is Tuesday morning, i was supposed to be resting but then again I have an early start. I have to accompany my friend to go to Cardinal Santos Medical Center to apply for a position of a nurse. We met at Robinsons Cainta. I was there first which is by the way the second time i was there first because often times i was late, well so much for that. I was there and decided to eat at Jollibee. I ordered burger steak, macaroni soup and a soda. To my disappointment, the soup was not that creamy which is supposed to be because the name of it was "creamy macaroni soup" so there. A couple of minutes later my friend arrived. I ordered meaty spaghetti again, and again to my dismay, the spaghetti was not that meaty at all, so much for the names and endorsements. Why is it businesses will do anything to promote the food even if it is not true. Or it just so happens I was at some second rate mall? My friend told me the way the food was cooked should based their menus or way of cooking to their surrounding. I beg to disagree. Totally! I mean seriously, what kind of reasoning is that? They must take care of their names and their reputations but i guess that is the problem with well established food joints. Well so much for food. After that, we went off and rode a bus on our way to Cardinal. Inside the bus another disappointment hit me. The TV was tuned in to Wowweee, a local noontime TV show which i happen to hate really big time. During our ride i was looking away from the TV and looking at the window. I am really amazed with the filipinos for they dont have pretenses when money is involved. They will do everything for easy money which is really saddening. Even they put themselves in a really embarassing situation. Well, we arrived at Greenhills.  We went to Greenhills Shopping Center because my friend wanted to take a leak. It was really one expensive leak cause we have lots of stopovers, which lead me to shop. I was an impulsive buyer. Poor me. Then after two whole hours of shopping, we went to grab an ice cream at Arce Dairy. I got my favorite Pistacho. It was great. We grabbed a drink at Mcdo and had a smoke, then went straight to Cardinal which is a 10-minute cab away. Just when we arrived, the exam or the interview will not take place any sooner until January 8! Would you believe that? After that we went to Cubao to buy my friend's shoes for her Oath Taking.  After long hours of shopping we went straight to her place and ate Chicken Inasal. It was relaxing in the end i guess..

Night out with Friends..

Another day has passed, I was home early from graveyard work and sadly i got no money in my pocket. I was held up last Saturday evening on my way home. I rode a PUV and I was nearing bayan in Marikina and a man hitched on the PUV and the next thing i knew he shouted "hold up". All my money, my cards, and everything was taken away. So much for that sad story,, then Sunday afternoon, i just pawned my N91 phone, my friend texted me up asking my whereabouts. I told her i was pawning my phone due to that sad event, and I suggested i can come over to her place, and so i did. We were suppose to go to church, but then as always another friend of ours came late. We dont have time to go to church anymore. We just stayed at my friend's place, we ate which is by the way, where I have tasted the most delicious embutido I ever tasted. It tasted really really good. Then we had catched up, tell each others update, and thats when we heard for the first time that our friend has been seeing someone. That this someone may be the one for her cause she told us she was taking it slow.  She was taking it really seriously. I was happy for her. Just a trivia, she hasnt been very lucky with guys. Well she is beautiful, she has nice body shape, but then again she got been fooled by two guys, and loved one insane guy. (lols) Well love can be very playful sometimes. I cant say im very happy with my love life, but hey, I am taking it slow. Why is it sometimes it can be very tiring to wait. Yeah, it is, but then they said it will not come if you expect and impatiently wait for it to happen. We're not getting younger. Why is it every people need someone to love? Well no man is an island they say, but then again would it be much better if we stay single, alone, and lets just enjoy our lives? Now.. I couldn't help but wonder.. is one person cannot really live alone or we need someone to fill up the missing pieces?

My Birthday..

Birthdays supposed to be happy moments but for me it wasnt.  This was the time where in me and my beloved was not talking to each other. So i was thinking, how will I make this birthday of mine special? I have this friend, and this friend was the one that somehow helped me in forgetting my guy. He was nice, he has a car, and he was the first guy that I have introduced to my friends. He was always fetching me whenever, wherever. He was kind, funny, very sweet, and we always eat at Something Fishy in Eastwood. Thats our spot i  might say. So we decided to go to Baguio. We stayed there for three days. It was a nice vacation. On our way there, we have lWe went to Camp John Hay, we went horse back riding which is a very exciting experience although it can be very uncomfortable. We ate at a chinese restaurant for our dinner the first day, we get drunked.  That was the moment i thought something was going to happen but i stopped myself coz you see im a very monogamous person.  Hard to believe for a gay like me but hey, its true.  I thought i will do it only to the person i love, and plus the fact that we work together..so there..We also went to flower garden and ate at Volante Pizza. We also ate at my most favorite restaurant of all time, 50's Diner. It was fabulous. The place has really 50's ambiance. The lighting was all pink. There are a lot of movie posters from the 50s. There is even a jukebox. The food was also great, in low and affordable price. Most especially, the milkshake was to die for. A must try. All in all, my experience in Baguio was totally unforgettable.

Welcome Back...

It’s been a while since I wrote here on blogger. I kind of lost my account and forgot my password, go figure. So what happened to me in the past few months of hibernation? Well for starters, I’m in a state where my career is taking off. The past months have been very good to me. I am finally on my way in establishing my first business venture, a computer cafe. I bought a 112 sq. m 2-unit commercial condo at Marquinton. It was located in Marikina just beside Blue Wave Mall. At first I was planning to establish a coffee shop but I can’t afford it. So I ventured into a computer shop with snacks on the side. I am initially putting in 10 pieces of computers and planning on serving coffee, pastries, cakes and snacks. I was practicing my baking skills and picked out the flavours of the coffee that I will be serving. I wanted it to add my personal touch. All pastries and cakes are my own recipes and the coffee flavours were specially brewed and came from Baguio. I also got myself a new phone. I am currently using N91 which I totally adore. I was recently promoted from work. I am now an Accounts Manager. I handle a total of 3 accounts. So I guess my career is off to a pretty good start this year.
Well, about love, still in love with same guy of course. Actually it’s been a long time. We had a long history. We were together last Christmas. He spent the holidays at my place, and then on New Year’s Eve we dine out. Then there goes the usual dates.  The most recent one was at Taco Bell, Food Court in Gateway and played at Timezone.
Unfortunately something happened to the point where in it totally shook the core of our relationship.  I believe it’s because one of our close friend and him got in to a fight, and then he slowly started to slip away.  He found his own circle of friends to the point that I felt I was being pushed away. It’s as if I didn’t exist anymore. I felt like my whole world fell apart. He was suddenly gone. I felt so broken. I got mad at him, as in totally pissed off. I didn’t talk to him for like three whole months. Whenever he tries to talk to me, I am always being a snob.  I reached a point where I felt like resigning from work, I was not happy anymore. I felt so alone.
One time, he did something so sweet that makes my heart melt. He gave me Solo B at Kenny Rogers with my favorite side dishes, potato and cheese with garlic and corn and mushroom.  At that time I was watching Grey’s Anatomy. I was at the scene where Meredith and Derek fought and Meredith's mother was admitted to the hospital and the news of her mother having Alzheimer’s broke out. It was the time wherein Meredith was so broken, she ran off outside the hospital and cried. Derek saw her and followed. She said to him, “I am exhausted, my work, my mother and especially you. I was exhausted of hating you. I don’t want to do that anymore and he kissed him.” That made me realize how exhausted I am of hating him. So I said the same lines with a little twist. I said to him "I am so exhausted, exhausted of my job, overtime for 16 hours, but the most exhausting part is hating you.  I don’t want to do it anymore.  I am sorry.”
He said to me, he too was hurt. It’s just that he didn’t let it get to him, and then we made up. We even got our first date after 4 months. We ate at BM's and had dinner. We had a very nice conversation, tried to catch up, and that was the most thrilling part. I really missed him, and now we are good, I might say back to normal. I learn not to have too many expectations, deep inside of me I still love him, but I only wanted for us to stay good friends and then just come what may, I think its way better.
And now I couldn’t help but wonder, despite all the things that has been said and done, how do we manage to forgive and forget?  Is it too blinding if you love the person so much?
Till next post.

XOXO
Kyl♥